Where do i go from here??.....

Whats it like being told that your dreams will always remain just simple dreams of a your childhood. To forget them and move on with life. I'd never imagine a day where such thoughts would cross my mind, not now anyways. To be told to never cause the line of dreams and reality and to sit on the sidelines and watch my dreams float on by but never cross the line. How am I supposed to go on with life knowing that my dreams will never become reality but they in fact will always just remain a dream of mine. I have lost all reason to exist in a world where i am told that my dreams will in fact just remain in my dreams. At times i wish my life was like a movie and will get through the tough times, but i dont know about this one. Being told that your dreams will never be is not easy to take. I use to think life was focused around my dreams and i should follow it. Now i dont know anymore. I dont know anything and lost all reason to live in a world where your told to give up on dreams. I have lost my will to exist. I might as well not exist. I dont know if im strong enough to let go. I always thought i could make a difference in the world, do something different from the rest and tell them i did something that everyone thought was impossible and made people believe in dreams. How can i make people believe when i dont even believe in myself anymore cause someone told me it was not possible anymore and i should give up.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aNp4n25WRNs&feature=related

GRASS IS greener on the OTHER SIDE???

I get up morning after morning with same routine. Get out of bed. Brush my teeth. Make chai tea. and i watch life past be by every minute, second, millisecond.......life keeps going whether your paying attention or not. I believe in everyone's life at one point or another a choice arises that can change that individuals life forever. The questions arises if one to recognize that choice or not. It can be right in front of us and we can just be scared to make a move. No one chooses to be afraid, some just lack the strength and courage to make the leap over onto the other side of the grass, where a whole new life awaits them. I know I'm afraid, i've been afraid since i can remember but i dont want to sit back and watch life pass me by and wake up one day and realize i'm 50 years old and feel i never did anything with my life. That is what scared me. If one day through my talents and for me just being me, I am able to better someone life, I know i have lived for a greater cause and i could die a happy man. We all have the same dream and many of us achieve that, but there a are a few too scared to live up to their full potential. TODAY I AWAKE A MAN WITH NO FEARS, ONLY HOPE FOR THE GREATER MANKIND.....THAT WILL ARISE WITH MY TALENTS......

My NeXt MoVe?????

I have like both feet over the line but my heels are touching the line.........

I feel that life is nothing more than simply us making choices and our world simply coming together....it doesn't sound that easy though. Every decision is filled with doubt and long hours of contemplation of what is the next move. Nothing in life is easy, I'm learning the meaning of this very slowly. They say my decision will come from within myself, but even i don't think that is possible. Everyday i feel more scared and scared of the choices i make, i don't want to be scared anymore....

StArS.....

Does anyone still wish upon a star? Do people hold dreams close to their heart and never let go? What is the meaning of life but random particles colliding with one another and creating a chaos in a orderless world. I guess that is what is life is about, trying to get by in a chaotic world. I keep my eyes out for any signs that might come by my way and lead me into the right direction. I still look at the stars at night and wonder if anyone is looking back and telling me that everything is gonna be okay and it will all work out. I guess everyone would love to hear that though. Maybe theres someone else looking out at the night sky and thinking and feeling the same way and maybe one day our paths will cross and everything will become magical again. Until then i wait........

LiFe Is LoVe

Everyday i awake and its feels as if i'm floating amongst the clouds, nothing beneath me but the air....wit no direction in sight, just soaring with my arms spread out like an eagle. With no one to guide me but my own heart to show me the path of my true destiny is, overwhelming. Struggling at every moment to recognize the signs that are in front me. Inside all of us there is a dream that we must never let go and i wont. We just have to remember, there are reasons that each of is are born and we have to find those reasons. I don't want to be one of those people that gave up on their dreams, I just cant. I don't think thats what life is about, we have to fight for it. And we have to teach others that they can be great too, we cant forget that.

THIS IS IT, HEAR I STAND, IM GONNA LIGHT UP THE WORLD, I'll FEEL GRAND, LIFE IS LOVE

The Beauty of LIFE...or just a prickly green bush....

I lay awake at night looking up at the night sky...immersed in the beauty of never ending universe..who is out there? anyone listening? is their life on other planets...is it better than here? I awake everyone morning from a sleepless night that kept me engaged in dreams about convoluted ideas..like me having a pet lion that talks to me??!!! i had no idea what the hidden meaning of that DrEaM was. what i do understand is that we all are here for different reasons and we have to find those reasons. sometimes life does poke you like a prickly bush or fills your heart with happiness..never give up on your Dream...for it is your dreams awake that define who you are....there is a sense of magic-ness to everything..life is magic whether we want to see that or not..we all want to change the world in some way or another..i cant do it by myself...remember that in spite of all the evil in the world...life is still.....magical...

Do fish have DrEaMs.......

Shimmering in the moonlight...sinking in a bowl of jello..grasping for air...It seems like that when your within reach of your goals, dreams or aspirations...there is a part of you that is afraid to risk it all on one thing. What is that makes us have this dream that makes you get up in the morning and keep fighting, but at the same time make you so afraid of your dreams????why......makes me think of the times when i was little and everything i dreamed felt so real...aliens, monsters under my bed, flying to the moon..... why do dreams change as you get older and the magic of being a kid dies? all i know is we must continue to believe in the beauty and magic of dreams for anything is possible. we must be in constant search of our own personal legend and make it come alive....

Remembering a legend...

Michael Jackson, what can be said of the KING OF POP. A man who forever changed history through his music. A man that was more than just an entertainer, he was an inspiration for many, a humanitarian and believed in the goodness of people. It can be said without hesitation that he was taken from us too soon, but his message will be carried down from our generation to the next.

I have a grown up as a fan of Michaels since as long I can remember. As many kids my age amazed at the dance moves MJ performed on stage, where seen as a miracle, a work of god that someone could bestowed upon with such gifts as his. I remember days of just trying to perfect the moonwalk on hardwood floors in my kitchen, never truly realizing that i would just be mimicking a masters work.

So much could be said of a genius like Michael Jackson. The world feels a lot more empty with him gone. All he ever wanted to do was share some of his LOVE with the world. He believed in the magic of love. MICHAEL JACKSON, will always remain a friend to me who made me believe in the beauty of dreams and that everyone has a gift and that whatever we do in the world, just do it with LOVE.

Personal Calling....

What is a personal calling? it is God's blessing, it is the path that God chose for you here on Earth. Whenever we do something that fills us with enthusiasm, we are following are legend. However, we don't all have the courage to confront our own dream.

why?

There are four obstacles. First: we are told from childhood onward that everything we want to di is impossible. We grow up with this idea, as as the years accumulate, so too do the layers of prejudice, fear, and guilt. there comes a time when our personal calling is so deeply buried in our soul as to be invisible. But its still there.

The second obstacle: love. We know what we want to do, but we are afraid of hurting those around us by abandoning everything in order pursue our dream.

Once we have accepted that love is a stimulus, we come up agains the third obstacle: fear of the defeats we will meet on the path. We who fought for our dream suffer far more when it doesn't work out, because we can't fall back on the old excuse: "Oh, well, I didn't really want it anyway." We do want it and know that we have staked everything in it and that the path of the personal calling is no easier that no other path, except that our whole heart is in this journey.

When we first begin fighting for our dream, we have no experience and make many mistakes, the secret of life, though, is to call seven times and to get up eight times.

The fourth obstacle: the fear of realizing the dream for which we fought all our lives. We look around at all those who have failed to get what they want and feel that we don't deserve to get what we want either. We forget about all the obstacles we overcame, all the suffering we endure, all the things we had to give up in order to get this far.

This is the most dangerous of the obstacles because it has a kind of saintly aura about it: renouncing joy and conquest. But if you believe yourself worthy of the thing you fought so hard to get, then you become an instrument of God, you help the Soul of the World, and you understand why you are here.

-Paulo Coelho, the alchemist

On the journey to discovering life......

It was hard getting out of bed to the beating drums of the rain beating down on my window. Stepping back on to campus gave me that overwhelming feeling of tension, competition and that persistent pestering neighbor called stress... i guess this all ensues as the duties of being a student at the University of Washington......

I walk onto campus thinking if there is where i want to be? is this my dream? Destiny? But the thing we all have to remember is what is our passion, the thing that makes our hearts happy..... i have learned that the heart always knows what it wants, we just have to make sure we are listening. They are things that make me still feel that i am alive in this world and that is my passion with movies. Dreams of becoming a director, not for fame or money but to know that someones interpretation or expression of life through film, will change someones out look on life like they have done for me.

I am trying to follow my life's omens as they are presented to us everyday which will lead us to our destiny.......